What does being a Christian mean?
Does it allow you to judge
others
and
question their faith
b/c they dont think the
same way you do?
Does it allow you to
say what's right and what's wrong?
Does it allow you to be a hypocrit?
Does it make you better than erveryone else?
If being a Christian
doesn't allow everyone
to be treated equal,
If being a Christian
means I can't have a mind
of my own,
If being a Christian
means I can't question
certain things in the
Bible without having
my faith questioned,
then I am no longer
Christian
I am simply a believer
apr.15 10
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Curiosity
So
A simple thought
Was triggered
By a
Visual
Which led
To
A fantasy
That
Led to
A
Plan
Which will
Eventually lead to
Action
But until then
Constant thoughts
Anticipation
More fantasies
nervousness
A simple thought
Was triggered
By a
Visual
Which led
To
A fantasy
That
Led to
A
Plan
Which will
Eventually lead to
Action
But until then
Constant thoughts
Anticipation
More fantasies
nervousness
Self-Conflict
What do u do when ur completely numb to ur emotions and its hurts the ppl u love the most?
How do u solve that issue?
How do u deal with that demon?
How do u express ur love to someone if u dont feel anything at all?
How do u comfort them when u cant even connect with the way they're feeling?
How do u get that voice inside of u to surface in order to prove ur love?
How do u manage?
How can u solve this issue alone?
Is it just a phase?
Will it ever go away?
How long will this last?
How do u get rid of it?
What to do?
How do u vent to the person u love about the problems u have with them without screwing things up?
How do u make a positive out of a negative?
How can u beg them not leave u when ur physical being is not convincing?
How can u convince them to stay around because without them u are lost?
How do u pretend to be happy just to make them happy?
((sigh))..how?
nov 16 09
How do u solve that issue?
How do u deal with that demon?
How do u express ur love to someone if u dont feel anything at all?
How do u comfort them when u cant even connect with the way they're feeling?
How do u get that voice inside of u to surface in order to prove ur love?
How do u manage?
How can u solve this issue alone?
Is it just a phase?
Will it ever go away?
How long will this last?
How do u get rid of it?
What to do?
How do u vent to the person u love about the problems u have with them without screwing things up?
How do u make a positive out of a negative?
How can u beg them not leave u when ur physical being is not convincing?
How can u convince them to stay around because without them u are lost?
How do u pretend to be happy just to make them happy?
((sigh))..how?
nov 16 09
Return to Sender Pt. 2
so i opened the package i kept it for quite some time now but maybe it wasn't for me to keep im lookin at it staring,actually wondering if it's here to stay or if ((sigh)) i have to return it it's like having to return ur fav game to GameStop because u only rented it for a few days it hurts it really does i loved that package it made me happy but there were missing pieces so my question is, is it truly worth fighting for? or do i just heartbrokenly return it hoping it'll come back with all the pieces? it hurts just thinking about it.
apr 4 09
apr 4 09
Sceptre's Perspective
Their raison d'etre is to entertain.They are the complete opposite of being prosaic.Through all the pain,anger,discomfort,they smile b/c it's their character.These characters are known as jesters.These characters are always smiling b/c the smile is permanent,a scar. It never goes away. Their smile is just a cover up.Let's just call this smile a physical scar to hide emotional scars. This character doesn't allow his real emotions to affect his physical appearance.He is to be bright, colorful,entertaining, and full of life. He is capricious, which makes him almost impossible to keep up with. He is constantly evolving into something greater. But what he seems to forget is that he is also human. Smiling doesn't solve his issues, it's just a way to ignore them. Ignoring problems leads to insanity. He keeps problems to himself.He hardly vents. Bottling up emotions can turn out to be volatile, therefore causing insanity. He laughs sarcastically. He is a joker, so most people dont know when to take him seriously. He does things in a jokingly manner to get his point across. We'll call it the gesture of a jester. It's kind of a way of crying out. We have to pay attention to more than just the surface meaning. It's deeper than you think. He does things that we may look at as something normal, but ends up having a purpose later on. Jesters are almost impossible to understand unless you're lucky to be close to them. But even the closest people dont completely understand them. Is it possible to completely understand this character?
jan 8 09
jan 8 09
Scarred for Life
Scars mark you and what you've encountered. They are reminders of the past. Scars show what has happened to you. Scars make you who you are.There are emotional scars. There are physical scars. Physical scars remind you of past events. When people see them they want to know the story. Physical scars cannot be effaced. You can't act like it isn't there because you have no choice but to see it. Scars are permanent. It's nothin you can heal. It's just there, forever. Emotional scars can be hidden, but only for so long. Through actions you reveal your emotional scars to the world. Some are deeper than others. They have this kind of power over you, if you allow it to happen. You can block out emotional scars for as long as you want, but you're only hurting yourself. They always come back to remind you of what you've been through. It happens. It's life. Those scars will never completely heal because someone can always open that same wound if you allow them to. There's no cure because the damage is done. All that you can do is treat it. It's like having AIDs. But only it's not neccessarily your fault. Once you allow your emotional scars to take over your life, you become vapid because you feel the need to block out everyone and everything that you think might hurt you. You put up this thick, brick emotional wall and make it almost impossible for anyone to get close to you. It's a good thing because you're protecting yourself from unwanted pain. But it's a bad thing because you're stopping yourself from experiencing life out of fear. My question is, How do you overcome this major issue?
Conquered
What doesnt kill me
can only make me stronger
But am I too strong?
I am numb physically
and experience pain mentally
No matter how hard
I try
I just cant cry
Too angry to laugh
It has been said that
crying and laughing
relieves the pain
But if it isnt possible to do
neither
What other remedy is there?
I'm trapped
in my own body
I didn't realize
how strong I was
But my own
strength
is killing me
I no longer
show emotion
talk with emotion
I rarely feel it
It takes alot
for me to cry
I thought that
this whole situation
would make me
shed at least
one tear
My eyes didnt even
water
Is what used to be
my protection
Now the only thing
that can defeat me?
It's like I have no soul
The life has been sucked
out of me
like cold air
Will I ever feel or
experience
some kind of emotion
again?
Trapped
Lost
Numb
Pain
july 12 08
can only make me stronger
But am I too strong?
I am numb physically
and experience pain mentally
No matter how hard
I try
I just cant cry
Too angry to laugh
It has been said that
crying and laughing
relieves the pain
But if it isnt possible to do
neither
What other remedy is there?
I'm trapped
in my own body
I didn't realize
how strong I was
But my own
strength
is killing me
I no longer
show emotion
talk with emotion
I rarely feel it
It takes alot
for me to cry
I thought that
this whole situation
would make me
shed at least
one tear
My eyes didnt even
water
Is what used to be
my protection
Now the only thing
that can defeat me?
It's like I have no soul
The life has been sucked
out of me
like cold air
Will I ever feel or
experience
some kind of emotion
again?
Trapped
Lost
Numb
Pain
july 12 08
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