Conquered

What doesnt kill me

can only make me stronger

But am I too strong?

I am numb physically

and experience pain mentally

No matter how hard

I try

I just cant cry

Too angry to laugh

It has been said that

crying and laughing

relieves the pain

But if it isnt possible to do

neither

What other remedy is there?

I'm trapped

in my own body

I didn't realize

how strong I was

But my own

strength

is killing me

I no longer

show emotion

talk with emotion

I rarely feel it

It takes alot

for me to cry

I thought that

this whole situation

would make me

shed at least

one tear

My eyes didnt even

water

Is what used to be

my protection

Now the only thing

that can defeat me?

It's like I have no soul

The life has been sucked

out of me

like cold air

Will I ever feel or

experience

some kind of emotion

again?

Trapped

Lost

Numb

Pain

july 12 08